I did my best to stay on the challenge plan... In fact I was SO proud of myself for how well I did on Day 1. Then yesterday....I did my shake and my cleanse & had a good breakfast....Then, the first snack after breakfast....
Well...let me SHARE something with all those people that don't have kiddos. They don't finish their food a lot....& mine have little snacks...little bite-size snacks. Well...my son thinks it's funny to feed us & he's SO stinkin' cute! Who wouldn't want to see him smile....
So...I TOTALLY didn't think about ANYTHING...as I consumed the two mini-chocolate chip cookies. In fact...I didn't even think about it until AFTER I already ate them.... Then about an hour later (on the phone again & about snack time) I grabbed the little Goldfish graham crackers that Heath was carrying around and started snacking....but that time I caught myself on the second one. Needless to say....I moped around the house...pretty bummed out at myself for about 30 minutes, mainly because I could not wrap my head around how I TOTALLY didn't make a conscious decision....there were no thoughts as I consumed them. I then started thinking about how much I probably NORMALLY consume and don't even REMEMBER. What a habit! I mean...I really feel like the only way I can STOP myself is by LIMITING what is actually in the house.
So then...I ate one less meatball for lunch & smaller vegetable portions & didn't have my last snack of the day.
That leads into something I read in The Daniel Plan...Chapter 2. In this chapter it discussed how our thoughts can sabotage us. "Negative thoughts, positive thoughts, or lack of thought can consume you." I've had both negative and positive thoughts consume me, but...lack of thought??? I mean...obviously it happened to me on Day 2, but HOW are we consumed by lack of thought? Because we are thinking of other things? Because it became a habit? But how? That's another one of those "in the middles" of how I go from Point A (Not consciously thinking... I guess) To Point B (consuming junk even though I THOUGHT I was making a CONSCIOUS effort not to.) I am VERY aware that I don't know how to fix that - EXCEPT for not having it around. I can also tell you...with two cute little munchkins that like those chocolate chip cookies too - It's gonna take MORE than will power.
So although I was shortly bummed out, I didn't beat myself up too bad & felt even MORE encouraged when I read this in The Daniel Plan: "The Daniel Plan encourages you to turn bad days into good information and to study your failures." I did that.
I want to share a little bit about Daniel. Daniel was one of the children that was taken captive when the King of Babylon and his army took over Jerusalem. The king put certain men over the different houses that held the captive children. Daniel was in a house with three other boys: Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah. The King ordered that all the children eat from the food of the King's table (including his wine), but Daniel felt moved in his heart not to & asked the master of the house (who really liked Daniel), if he could not eat it. The master of the house told him he was concerned because they needed to be nourished & the King may become angry if they look frailer than the children in other houses. Daniel and the house master agreed that for 10 days (same number of days as my cleanse) the 4 boys in his house would eat peas & beans and drink water. If at the end of the ten days they looked frailer they would eat of the King's table. After the ten days...those 4 boys looked healthier than the rest. In the book of Daniel it tells us that God blessed the boys with wisdom and learning. When all the children were brought before the King, not only were they stronger, but the King found them to be wiser and have a better understanding of things than all the magicians and astrologers in his kingdom. Coincidence? Hardly. The King decided to let them live with him because of all they had to offer.
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| This is an illustration from The Golden Children's Bible - 1993 Edition. This was the illustrator's depiction of what the boys may have looked like: Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah. |
It MATTERS...what we put in our body. That said, this whole change is gonna be TOUGH for me...REALLY. Especially when I think about my eating habits for...pretty much...my entire life. That is why I NEED The Holy Spirit to nudge me & pull me in the right direction, like He did for Daniel. If you aren't familiar with Daniel, you should read up on him. That group of 4 were some kids of FAITH!! I mean they pretty much stood firm against a nation when they were asked to worship idols. By the way I learned about Daniel & many others in The Golden Children's Bible (1993).
I was also a little bummed out yesterday because I had planned to go grocery shopping for more healthy stuff, but didn't want to get Little Man out in the nasty weather. I thought I was stocked up, but the kids like the good stuff too, so I didn't have many options & it didn't look like he was going to be feeling any better today (which he didn't). Let's just say I'm glad I could add my parents to my support group. I mean Mom picked up things I didn't even think of. It is REALLY important to have supportive people around you.
All of how Day 2 went, proved to show me, that I can STILL eat healthy when things happen a little differently than I planned....which happens a lot around our house. I was able to be there for my son, get my daughter to & from school, with the help of my support system & make adjustments to Day 2's meal plan to still have it end as a pretty accomplished day. Now I know that my eating habits are engrained in my brain & I have some habits that need to be broken and replaced with good ones.
God bless ya'll! I'm already a day off track, so be ready for catch-up posts! Buck Up Baby & Ride With Jesus & let's get healthy together!!
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